Sunday, August 31, 2008

ChAnGe a BeTTeR LiFe!

I am so RoTTen, SiCk and LoOk DisGusting these days!
Never read books, always online late untill 4 am, eat too much and getting even more fatter, hang out late, spent too much money...
HaTe Myself now!!! GOod Girl Gone Bad!!
Preparing a ChanGe...
From now on, work hard, don't open computer unless a emergency case, On dieT to LOSE WEIGHT, and and and Save Save Save money$$$$$$$$$$$$!!!
No MoRe BOring Jokes anymore!
HaHaHa...

Monday, August 18, 2008

The girl is me

19th of August of 1988, the talented girl was born.

This is the last day before she is 20 years old.

A little upset, a little disappointed, a little desperate.

20 years old means she needs to think more about her life.
20 years old means she has to decided her future destiny.
20 years old means she should grow up and face the world.
20 years old means she can't pretend as an idot and don't care everything any more!

Can she still be CRAZY at her 20 something?!

I admit it is her,herself, who are refusing to grow up.Because she believes when people become old, life won't be simple anymore. If you don't believe her, just think about the boy or girl you fell in love with when you are a child. Maybe she/he is not good-looking, maybe she/he is not rich. But when love beckons you, you will just follow it. That is called simple. Then, look at yourself now,can you answer my question "Are You Simple" without any doubts?!

She met the boy when she was 13 years old. she doesn't treat it as love anyway, and she doesn't call him "boy friend".They do not even have a kiss.But they do like each other.

The girl's house is not far from school, but he insisted on seeing her home everyday. Then the most beautuful time of a day was the moment they went back home together hand in hand while riding their bicycles. If there weren't many people in the road, they would sing loudly.
See, life is that crazy at that time!

Every day a girl could receive a sweet or chocolate from him. Everyday there was a note sent together with the sweet or chocolate would be read by the girl. Then everyday the girl woke up with a little question mark in her mind: what would he write on his notes today? Untill now the girl is still used to bring some sweets along.
Hehe, life is that sweet at that time~~

They did have bad times,although she is not the kind of girl who never allows her boyfriend talks to other girls.That time she really got angry. she was completely been ignored! So she decided to stop talking to him anymore. The little poor boy totally didn't know what to do. So he madly wrote her name all on his shirt and shoes.Then she laughed.laughed happily! What a stupid boy...hehe. Really a pretty moment when she saw her name everywhere on his shoes.The expensive white Nike shoes!
Wow, life is so unpredictable at that time!

Do you pursuing that kind of simple life? Maybe you don't,but she does. She is still looking for someone who holds the simple faith "he likes her" and wish to do all the stupid things to love her. But she also knows that the older she is the less possibility will she have to find the guy.

Isn't it a little sad?

Simple,it's just too simple to find. Maybe she has already given up...

She never met the boy after graduated from her junior school.
7 years, she has already forgot the face of him.
But the moment they shared she would never forget.

Anyway, whatever comes around and goes around will just be a part of life...hehe

Be brave girl!

By the way, She lost her best present for her 20 year's birthday--The chance to attend the International Varsity Dabate Competition.
What a pity!
But her heros are still the best in her heart!! she will love them forever!

She miss her home, her family and her friends!


Saturday, August 16, 2008

瞬息之间

一切都是瞬息
一切都将会过去
而那过去了的,将会成为最真切的怀恋

我不是没有目的的。
我就是为了国辩!
我就是想有朝一日站在国际的大舞台上,用自己的方式告诉大家,我们马大很强的!
即使我可能程度不好,经验不足,思维不够。
即使我可能不受重视,被遗忘,甚至没有机会。
可是我始终静静地看,仔细地学,默默地记。
我相信勤能补拙,天道酬勤。

我爱北大。
曾经,也是现在。
可是当北大遇到马大,我会毫不犹豫地,斩钉截铁地,全心全意地支持马大!
不仅因为它是我的大学。
是因为我看到一群人,他们为了辩论真心的付出。
是因为我看到一个家,家长、孩子为了一个目标,努力着,奋斗着。
是因为我看到一种信念,热爱辩论,享受辩论!

上帝真是个孩子。
他淘气地跟我们开着玩笑。
只可惜他的玩笑让太多人泣不成声、捶胸顿足乃至肝肠寸断。

孩子,你们不该输!

即使我也很希望你们应对“人才流失”的时候可以斩钉截铁的告诉他这个问题所有国家都有所以他不成气候;
即使我也很希望你们面对印尼问题的轮番挑战时可以多几次告诉他们我们的报告留住的不是劳工而是人才;
即使我也很希望你们解决无能政府问题时能够更有气势、更坚定地告诉他们还有人民;
即使我也很希望你们在面对对方的人格轰炸时可以站起来理性的回击!

可是我所有的希望都绝对不足以成为你们输的理由!
输了的是无能的举办当局无端端将五个评判改成三个;
输了的的无知的评审以自己立场作为输赢的考量;
输了的是所有的观众都没有能力去发现以及解决以上的两个问题!

孩子,我不懂你为什么会底气不足。
是不是太久的辩论让你们麻木,以至于忘了辩论给你的最初感动?
是不是家长为你做了太多,从而失去了自己身体力行的机会?
是不是曾经的成就太显著,以至于没有人敢站出来质疑你们的不足与不对?

撇开那些混蛋评判,也许我们也还是输在气势上罢。
因为辩论不是简单的例行公事。
因为辩论就是要说服。

我猜:
在房屋的包围中,在蔚蓝的天空下,在清晨的第一缕阳光过窗前的时候。
那个房间里会隐着最含蓄的悲哀。
而悲哀的路是无限的悠长的。
你们是可以流泪的,却是不能绝望的。
因为还有我们,在等待着英雄们的起来!

我不知该如何表达。
那是干枯的眼睛期待着泉涌的热泪。

当不移的灰色的行列在遥远的天际爬行,
我有太多的话语,太悠久的感情……

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Bad day...

All the international students have to take a course called Introduction to Malaysia. A course should be interesting but actully so damn boring! There are couples of friends which we met when we were taking the English course. This is not important. What I wanted to say is that I was caught reading Chinese book during lecture time! Well, I am wrong...not being careful enough. There are millions of people who were doing other things in the class--playing games,surf the internet,sending sms....but only me got caught....what a shame!

But to me is not a big deal. I always doing other things on lectures which I don't like. As long as I have a good result, everything is OK! Because some of the lecturers are really...sort of...stupid! I always find mistakes in the lecture notes and they seldom answer your questions. So what?! Just skip la! I can even teach them! haha .Just bluffing!
Ok,I am not feeling well today...The words above is just a execuse. I feel a little sorry to the teacher whom we all like and always nice to us...

I got sick...
Bad day......

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Timekiller

I will never watch Korean Serial again!

erm...maybe one more time...

OK,next time will be the last time!

This is how I surrender to myseelf. Now it's 3 AM, the reason why I am still awake is the damn korean serial! Actually I am not a fan of korean stuffs, to the opposite, I hate them! But things come to a little different about the their serials. Whenever I see them, I got addicted. Then I will step into a beautiful dream which I make it by myself! Until time goes by, when I suddenly realise I am living in a real world, I got disappointed. Because fairy tales are only in the books. Reality is reality.

Sometimes I really want to be a child again. Never works, never get angry, never dreams, never lose hopes....

My friends told me that I need to be brave. If no messages, no calls, no e-mails, no body knows. My excuse is that I am still young, I don't know how to love and how to be loved!
haha Wake up,girl! 9 days later, you will be 20.
Need to grow up...

Who is my special one?!
hahahaha!
Handsome!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

这一年(从2007年7月到2008年7月)

这一年,远离祖国,远离亲人,去到异地漂泊。
这一年,留下了遗憾。
这一年,和南京小丫头住到了第八宿舍的B412,开始了从未经历过的宿舍生活。她教会我很多。
这一年,曾经有一人女人不跟我说话。后来好了很多。
这一年,最开心的日子是和来自全世界各个国家的人一起读语言。
这一年,学会了拒绝和忍受寂寞。
这一年,通过了语言考试,并顺利地进入了大学。
这一年,跟同学庆祝考试的胜利,回来后高烧不退。
这一年,生病的时候,也曾给妈妈打电话然后歇斯底里的大哭。
这一年,曾经悲痛的搬家。离开那些留在八宿的美好记忆。
这一年,最不理智的是为了一个桌子大发脾气。结果她无比大度,还贴心地原谅我。
这一年,三个人住到405,并建立了深厚的、铁打不动的革命友谊!
这一年,最激动的日子是和大家一起迎新周!一起欢呼,一起感动,一同累到半夜才睡。
这一年,第一次离开祖国过生日。但这一次感动的哭了。
这一年,代表国际学生上了马来西亚最大的英文报纸教育版的封面。
这一年,和狗屎运搭档两个人去了云顶游乐园。
这一年,第一次经历的穆斯林的斋月,只是没能有勇气从日出到日落一天都不吃不喝。
这一年,又和狗屎运搭档去了朋友的家乡,马来西亚的东海岸--关丹。
这一年,爸爸妈妈来看过我。他们决定如果看到我生活不好就立即带我回来!结果走的时候,还是他们两个。
这一年,第一次重回祖国大陆,带着泪水闻到冬天的气息。
这一年,妈妈生了一场闹到现在的病。
这一年,全家和姥姥姥爷去了华东五市,有点遗憾南京小妞没能出来看我。
这一年,第一次去老师家作客。
这一年,差一点入党。
这一年,第一次在网上订了便宜的机票。
这一年,又重回马来西亚,在机场,抱着妈妈哭着,然后大胆向前走,没有回头。
这一年,曾那么想念马来西亚的味道。
这一年,实现了大部分的计划。
这一年,第一次在外地过年。三十晚上,我们在楼下餐厅和国际友人抢电视看春节联欢晚会。
这一年,第一次用吃汤圆代替吃饺子。
这一年,第一次过年没买新衣服。
这一年,把手机丢了。又继续支持了诺基亚。
这一年,405身在曹营心在汉的那个女的搬走了。但却过得比以前更好了。为她祝福。
这一年,最喜欢的女老师一个去了英国,一个去了澳大利亚。
这一年,两个穿开裆裤时的朋友都去了法国,弟弟去了新西兰。
这一年,加入了国际顶级的辩论队,并在不到一个星期的训练后,随队去马六甲参加表演赛。
这一年,最有收获的日子是白天上课,晚上去辩论队训练,半夜和一群兄弟姐妹们去喝茶,听他们讲辩论队的历史,听他们说身边的故事,在心里默默重新认识马来西亚。然后一两点被我亲爱的队友送回家。
这一年,最伤心的事是因为回家的机票,失去了参与世界大专辩论赛的机会。这一年,第一次穿连衣裙去参加晚会。
这一年,最振奋人心的事是观看火炬传递并带头唱响国歌。那一刻,热泪盈眶。
这一年,还是在考试之前临时抱佛脚。还曾为了背难受的政治经济学抓耳挠腮。
这一年,在考完试的第一天就又回到了祖国的怀抱。
这一年,一个人出去旅行,秦皇岛、唐山、北京。然后发现好朋友还是一辈子的!
这一年,暑假和朋友们大早上8点去k歌,发现我还是一如既往K歌之王!
这一年,除了中国,又多了一个国家需要祝福。
这一年,除了亲人,又多了一班朋友需要牵挂。
这一年,我在大马成长,长大。


这一年,瘦了,又胖了。
现在依然是小肥鹅。

这一年,剪过两次头。
现在是一如既往的大脸上顶着一头不和谐的过肩长发。

这一年,曾经那么地喜欢过一个人,有过一次不想让人知道的也鲜为人知的感情经历。
现在,还是一个人。

这一年,从朴新阳崇拜到梁朝伟。
现在欣赏胡渐彪。

这一年,丢失了曾经的宽容,多了许多从没有过的挑剔、与抱怨。
现在正在挽回中。

这一年,不经常上QQ,不是那么频繁的问候老朋友们。
现在,很高兴他们能不计较,一样铁!

这一年,曾经满怀壮志决定出去闯一闯,并决定不轻易回国。
现在,为了妈妈,我决定早点回来造福祖国。



这一年最遗憾的是没能去成新加坡。
这一年最想干却没能干成的事是出去挣钱。
这一年最想不通的是为什么瘦了不多。
这一年最思念的是家中父母。
这一年最需要感谢的人是辩论队的朋友们。
这一年关注最多是祖国的同胞。
这一年最希望的事是和每一个朋友都见上一面。
这一年最需要努力的事是要成长为一个伟大的辩手。
这一年最需要祝福的是天下所有的父母。
这一年最害怕的事是四川大地震。
这一年最鄙视的人是藏独分子。
这一年奥运会一定会成功!
这一年藏独们都不得好死!
这一年抗震救灾一定完成!

这一年发生了很多,很多。
我也不知道我是进步了还是退步了。
但是唯一不变的是:现在,我依然是我!